Save Some Possibilities

My father once appraised that you were "a woman of achievement". From my point of view, I have no interest in the almost epic before my unfortunate befalling while I have never been in doubt about the correctness of the words you "officially given", including your imparting to me it is important to always "save some possibilities".

It occured to me on the Tuesday before last in the experiment class. Rather than my authorized class, I switched to another class due to agenda conflict and unexpected cooperated with a girl with decent appearance. As a result of her generous compliance, it was quite smooth during the process and we finished our task before any other guys. The ending was so characteristic of me that I turned down her kind friend request without leaving any time for thought. (Hoping that I was not self-sentimental) However, I found myself lost in reflection on the following day, lost in self-interrogation of "have I missed something".

I am not a big fan of socialization and not good at handling long but mostly silent friend list. Therefore, it was a common strategy of mine to refuse everything one-time. Meanwhile, I have been alway holding a rebellious idea about family reconstruction and have recently found sympathy in some systematic theory. A manifest contradiction then emerges that a materialist should not only fabricating theory without putting pen to paper. It then sounds a good idea not to be so extreme as before. (This worths extensive explanation but not here)

Obviously you are right again, but really? When it comes to evaluate your advice, we should only focus on my "no hesitation" principle. I do not think a violation in myself manifested itself here. Perhaps on the exact opposite of your expectation, my response to this incident is no exception from my habitual "modification for the next" pattern. It is true that I am kinda welcomed among the professors who have had communication with me, basically for my versatile competence. Here I long to answer your lecture with the fact that most of my impressive work are from spontaneous inspiration rather than the allocated time for consideration. To put it in another word, I am convinced of subconscious calculation at present.

I know you will not be surprised then, for you have always saved some possibilities for my life decision, lol. To be honest, you have embranced my path which diverges alot from that of yours. It might then be acceptable for you to attribute such a difference to my current status. In fact, I think I may have sensed the "connection" that you mentioned before as I am gradually buying more authority and influence. Perhaps you are right till the end, who knows.

by Syl & Sylvia @ 2022-11-22 17:16:28 @ Changsha, Yuelu District
originally posted @ https://www.cnblogs.com @ 2022-11-22

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