Syl_4

I being kicked out of my meditation, an acute pain throatcuts my midnight before your summon. Nailed against the wall, I look down to find only the feather left outside my chest. At the expense of my blood, its veiling darkness grows and condenses into your silhouette. My fear overwhelms my thrill at once- why royal you are here?
Reaching out your slender hand, you hold up my face with your sharp nail towards your scarlets "Retribution to your treason," your pupils glare with sanguinary glow, "let me inspect…" Feasting on blood of sinner by the arrow, your eyes blaze and dissolve me in crimson. My secrets are nowhere to hide now but you put on an elusive smile… “Interesing…
…you had joyful sorrow…"
Yah… Part of my journey culminated with no glory. However, I could embrace all of them calmly and fearlessly, also suggesting my previous tranquility an real final answer but not only one to a possibility. And honestly, the capability behind this which I had spent endless sleepless nights soliloquizing to acquire is what I treasure most indeed. Also I believe that there is no rights and wrongs for a really hearted choice. On the other hand, I know I had really let down my surrounding expectancies anyway and it did torture me to my bone sometimes. Knowing that human is a kind of "social animal", I know clearly that I have omitted a crucial part about my social responsibilities. As time elapses, definitely one day I will be maturer to understand it, reconsider all of my conclusions and maybe reach a very different answer. But for now, I'd like to say but only to say sorry to every helping hand for me and every caring eye on me, together with my apology to you my queen for not shining your name…
…you had heavy relief…"
Yah… I finally washed off all my disguise and stepped out to confront my haunting wraith. She eventually rested in peace but left a confusing feeling to be unveiled to me. There were some indications suggesting that it might be subtle and even have the power to make me regret. But what I should do is still just keep pondering solitarily to get a fuller comprehension of my real desire, subject "love, sex and marriage" and how much I will be willing to sacrifice for them. It is related to my social responsibilities again, henceforce more time is indispensable inevitably…
…I do think you are similar to me and your treason seems more interesting… So why?"
Partly, my majesty… Part of me came from you so we are consequently alike. I used to admire you so desperately but in effect it was kind of a masquerade. The deeper I brave to my ego, the harder the acrobat is… Along these years I have to realize that we are merely partly identical and mostly I appear warm on your contrary. Nonetheless, I still swear to endeavor to be insightful and foresighted like you, to make precise and beautiful maneuver or conspiracy sometime, to conduct necessary deed or atrocity sometime- I will spare my inner as your shrine. All my remainings, however, are endowed by Angela "Mercy" Ziegler with her knowledge, her scientific spirit, her devotion, her fraternity… I conceive that she can forgive my former trespass. And I'm willing to be a combination of you two and till the day my "Fusion" befall…
…If I still worth your favour…
You hold my puppet line, my majesty…
"Interesting… Then today will not be your day~" you just turn around after a contemplation. Your silhouette dims probably due to my great blood loss. But I'm sure you stop to say something at last-
"How about… some day?"

by Sylvanyao @ 2020-08-10 @ Wuhan, Hanyang District
originally posted @ https://user.qzone.qq.com @ 2020-08-11
repost @ https://www.cnblogs.com @ 2022-06-18