I'm in a deep lousy mood... :(

I'm in a deep lousy mood. Actually, I've been in lousy mood for months. Well, somethings' happening here and everything's changing rapidly. And this is totally different from what I expected. Although I knew these would happen some day but I still can't believe that these all are happening.

The most disappointed thing is: The key man didn't feel them at all -- I mean the things' happening. Even after I noticed him that things were not OK and we couldn't do nothing as we were just doing then, but should do something aggressively, he still said:"Everything's OK except we haven't enough cash to push up the market. I don't what to do nothing but there's some reason to be."

Please forgive me you all, there're some reasons so I can't write down the details here. And even after things are gone, I still probably can't write it down here.

The reason I'm in a deep lousy mood is that I need to, have to, am going to get a change to my life, my plan, my dream, and my career. And the things changing are a bit too many for me. I know, I know. I ought to face and deal with them, but they just jump out so suddenly and I hitted into these walls so heavily. They pained me too much. Now I still feel that I don't know what's up there and why it happens though I already knew it. Please God, send me a place with a little house with an onlined PC besides a beautiful seashore and nothing else. If I'm not bother you much, send my GF and my relationships by the way, but no one else please.

Good bye, the good old days. Although they are not good exactly, I have to say that I love them so much. And now I got to say good bye to them.