IIt's 5AM again, and i stay so late just for the O.C..
Why can I control myself, forced my mind to face the reality.
To sleep at the normal time, and live as the normal way.
It's a way to give up or a way to stick on?
It's the refuge, a excuse, a brief happy time i can temperatelly forget something lingering in my mind.
II am still weak, course a man cannot control himself is not a real one. So am I
I am not happy most of time.
What's wrong with myself?
I want to keep awake not only tonight, but the next day, till the night is coming, then i will have a deep sleep.
so i can get up at 8:00 as usual.
crazy, man. but that's the only way i feel i can grasp my mind.
dont worry, everything will be ok.
