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Ah! So inefficient today... I feel I'm slacking off too. I'm still working on that application with Equity Capital Markets Analyst. By working, I mean that I have been trying to figure out exactly how this position works by reading career guides. With the coverletter, I want to incorporate information as such: why I want to work for this company and, in particular, why this position suits me. I feel that the coverletters I had before-- focusing on one or two of my skillsets are too generic. The tone sounds automatic, and there's just no tailoring at all to any position. But writing coverletters from scratch gives me the headaches. I procrastinated hour by hour... watching 爱情公寓 and 幸福来敲门. Sigh...

For the Social Networking movie, I have exactly the same feeling. In fact, I couldn't bring myself to finish watching it to find out the "pleasant clue", as you put it. But I do recommend King's Speech. It is quite inspirational, but it's not as good as it's advertised to be. I have not had the chance to watch Inception yet, but I doubt it is going to be as good.

I have done a lot of thinking (and it's kind of 胡思乱想 as well) after seeing a lot of my classmates who land with good jobs. Some of them don't look like they have the capability or they could land with as good a job at all. Others, I can only say that their efforts finally paid off. Looking back at my four years, I feel that all of the studying I've done, all the activities I have taken part in, I've been through them not because I cared, but because I felt the obligation to do them. All four years, I have been under this passive learning process. I cram for exams the day before, without truly learning. I spend my leisure time chatting away brainlessly with roommates, about gossips around us. Back then, it didn't feel right to be NOT sitting there and have fun. What more is there to life if you're not catching up with friends? My friends are still a very important part of my life, but looking at the accomplishment of others, I couldn't help but dwell on the what ifs. What if I had spent less time with friends and more time in the library? What if I had taken on an active learning process and taken in broad base of knowledge through whatever source I could find? Would I have been a different person today? Maybe now I would be more prepared to face whatever is ahead, and not freak out about life after school. If I had lived my four years differently, maybe I could be the one with a nice job and fat pay check waiting for me upon graduation. I wish my brother is just three or four years younger than me. So I could tell him my experience, all the things that I wanted to do but didn't; so he could learn from my mistakes.

This may also happen because while in school, I only meet people who are like me. Same age, same school, and probably people who similar background as me. That homogeneity might also have led to where I am today. Ah...