20080426
These days, I have been not comfortable. I felt a liitle headachy. I have to make everything go on well. The time is so important and so little to me. I missed my parents so much. But I won't like to phone them. I must deal the things on my own. Don't talk about this now. These things are discussed so much. Which company would be my next one to work for? I don't know yet, but I know It's a great company that I like to bury my all energy on it. The keen desire are burned so heavily on my deep heart. What's about my merit ? By then, I would be chat in english with no problem, this is the main one I think. And for others, I would have strong skills on C/C++ programing, algorithm, and the principle of computer, OS and compiler. Is it sufficient? Of course not, It's just a the begining of my new life, new struggling period. I hope the day of that could be approached earlier. I like the challenge. God bless niuniu and my famlily, I pray again. The time have passed so qiuckly and slowly, how paradoxical of my feelings. Just insist on. As like the idiograph of Niuniu's QQ, "Tomorrow is another day."
20080427
Today I was reluctant to take the free writing. But the free writing should not stop, just one time is not allowed. There is some thing that I must insist on. Niuniu phoned me and broken my heart once again. I don't know what to say. She said there is no chance for us to live together again. She said it was very clear? If I wouldn't follow, she and me are not friends again. I am desperate. Tearfully, not like a man, How can I like be so trashy? I did my best to change everything. I am good at cooking now, I hope one day could cook for her in future. The economy situation would be fine not far away too. Everything would be fine, and something is fine now, but it's too late, I am laughing, not at others, just at me. What I have did my best do is lead the result like this. I can face, but there is a regret and never have a chance to make up it in my whole life, No matter how hard I am, it is the fact. The only word I could say is "Sorry, niuniu, although you changed, everything changed, I will be stand there to wait you come back. Maybe I rearlly have no chance to make up my fault many years later, all of my hope is that you can understand me of today many years later, The true love is the most valuable thing in the world".
20080428
Today I feel a little better. Tonight a old friend phoned me and told me that he got a interview of foreign capital company. And later we talked about each other's lives recently. What I shouldn't say is that I told him ,I watch the CCTV 9 shows, "I am able to undertand of most of it". To some extent, it's a little exaggerated . From now on, I must keep silent until I get some success. Then I could share my experience of success with others. Niuniu hate the big talks what I have made. I should learn from them. Although for increasing some pressure to me, but to make big talk is not a good method. It's enough for me knowing what I am doing, it's not necessary to tell other people. Recently, my work and study are not follow some plans, everything I did is random. It's a good habit that to some exact thing at the fixed time. I have to find a balance between my sleep and my work, study. The random days is over, Tomrrow, and the days later, in the specific time, what should I do, just do it, don't think about otherthings. don't distracted by other things, other sounds.
These days, I have been not comfortable. I felt a liitle headachy. I have to make everything go on well. The time is so important and so little to me. I missed my parents so much. But I won't like to phone them. I must deal the things on my own. Don't talk about this now. These things are discussed so much. Which company would be my next one to work for? I don't know yet, but I know It's a great company that I like to bury my all energy on it. The keen desire are burned so heavily on my deep heart. What's about my merit ? By then, I would be chat in english with no problem, this is the main one I think. And for others, I would have strong skills on C/C++ programing, algorithm, and the principle of computer, OS and compiler. Is it sufficient? Of course not, It's just a the begining of my new life, new struggling period. I hope the day of that could be approached earlier. I like the challenge. God bless niuniu and my famlily, I pray again. The time have passed so qiuckly and slowly, how paradoxical of my feelings. Just insist on. As like the idiograph of Niuniu's QQ, "Tomorrow is another day."
20080427
Today I was reluctant to take the free writing. But the free writing should not stop, just one time is not allowed. There is some thing that I must insist on. Niuniu phoned me and broken my heart once again. I don't know what to say. She said there is no chance for us to live together again. She said it was very clear? If I wouldn't follow, she and me are not friends again. I am desperate. Tearfully, not like a man, How can I like be so trashy? I did my best to change everything. I am good at cooking now, I hope one day could cook for her in future. The economy situation would be fine not far away too. Everything would be fine, and something is fine now, but it's too late, I am laughing, not at others, just at me. What I have did my best do is lead the result like this. I can face, but there is a regret and never have a chance to make up it in my whole life, No matter how hard I am, it is the fact. The only word I could say is "Sorry, niuniu, although you changed, everything changed, I will be stand there to wait you come back. Maybe I rearlly have no chance to make up my fault many years later, all of my hope is that you can understand me of today many years later, The true love is the most valuable thing in the world".
20080428
Today I feel a little better. Tonight a old friend phoned me and told me that he got a interview of foreign capital company. And later we talked about each other's lives recently. What I shouldn't say is that I told him ,I watch the CCTV 9 shows, "I am able to undertand of most of it". To some extent, it's a little exaggerated . From now on, I must keep silent until I get some success. Then I could share my experience of success with others. Niuniu hate the big talks what I have made. I should learn from them. Although for increasing some pressure to me, but to make big talk is not a good method. It's enough for me knowing what I am doing, it's not necessary to tell other people. Recently, my work and study are not follow some plans, everything I did is random. It's a good habit that to some exact thing at the fixed time. I have to find a balance between my sleep and my work, study. The random days is over, Tomrrow, and the days later, in the specific time, what should I do, just do it, don't think about otherthings. don't distracted by other things, other sounds.
