2024-03-12 闲话

Older Isabel Iarosa lyrics

I used to shut my door while my mother screamed in the kitchen
I'd turn the music up, get high and try not to listen
To every little fight, 'cause neither one was right
I swore I'd never be like them
But I was just a kid back then
The older I get the more that I see
My parents aren't heroes, they're just like me
And loving is hard, it don't always work
You just try your best not to get hurt
I used to be mad but now I know
Sometimes it's better to let someone go
It just hadn't hit me yet
The older I get
I used to wonder why, why they could never be happy
I used to close my eyes and pray for a whole 'nother family
Where everything was fine, one that felt like mine
I swore I'd never be like them
But I was just a kid back then
The older I get the more that I see
My parents aren't heroes, they're just like me
And loving is hard, it don't always work
You just try your best not to get hurt
I used to be mad but now I know
Sometimes it's better to let someone go
It just hadn't hit me yet
The older I get
The older I get the more that I see
My parents aren't heroes, they're just like me
And loving is hard, it don't always work
You just try your best not to get hurt
I used to be mad but now I know
Sometimes it's better to let someone go
It just hadn't hit me yet
The older I get

这歌词写的确实好。看着 BERT 的 paper，偶尔从 ChatGPT 的 translation 中游神，又被 The older I get 所捕捉。寒假的时候喜欢上了 bilibili 上的 up 主 Zhao_Song 和 youtuber Hackbear。他们的视频给我带来了很多帮助，未来可能我有可能成为和他们一样的人，或者大概率做的比他们差，也不排除比他们在 research/startup 做的好的可能。有人说 programmer 和 product manager 最大的区别是思维方式上的不同，我还是很难接触到产品经理的，也只能通过他们的视频破出信息茧房了。

不过你怎么知道我写作垫底了。

这里本来有一段关于“贵族感”的讨论，后来我发现人名太多了就想用一些 foundation model 中的名词把这话重新说一遍，改着改着发现自己不太会说了，于是果断放弃了。总的来说生活是自己的。歌词里面唱得

I used to be mad but now I know
Sometimes it's better to let someone go.

Someone 凭什么不能泛化呢？他可以是想法，可以是执念，可以是欲望。小学一年级的我从没有羡慕六年级的人十项全能，为什么现在要羡慕比我多打十几年球的人能有后仰之飘逸、在转身时轴心脚发力 呢？